it's always something

it's either a leaky water heater
job's too stressful
jeans that were baggy last week are tight-
gaining weight, what???
a broken oven, then the check engine light won't turn off
oh look! a nail in my tire!!!!!
ain't life grand???

ITS FINALLY FALL

BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY

A symbol of hope

must try this! (trust the universe AND stitch words)

loving this one! i'd like to think i have a few good projects left in me. there's a basket
full of embroidery floss, needles and fabric waiting to be transformed
into something stitchy and beautiful!

feeling more positive today. i know i am not alone. i have many people who love me. i get very sad and lonely sometimes, and it can be very overwhelming. i'm definitely not hopeless! when i go off on a tangent like i did last night, i read it the next day and am grateful i don't feel that way! the feelings come and go. that's normal isn't it?

maybe i need to change the name of my blog to something else,
maybe not, i'm still in pursuit of gratitude, even though i don't feel too much gratitude right now.
i was hoping for a little more attention than i've been getting, is that wrong? i want someone to notice me!
this is obviously not the way to do that! this is just an online diary. i know that.
i find myself feeling sorry for myself at night. i have been having one glass of wine too many, i cry for no apparent reason. no, the reason is apparent, but only to me. i don't really like myself very much. i'm a middle aged, over weight widow. i don't want to live in the past, but it keeps overwhelming me. i went to a therapist for a while. he was very nice, but i need to learn to deal with my shit on my own. there's no one else who will. everyone i know has their own problems. so i'm dumping mine on a blog that no one reads...how pathetic is that?????????

trying to be my own best friend...we're not getting along right now!