i know it shouldn't matter-

but it does...
i love shopping for people at christmas..put a lot of thought into it, because i want to
but i feel a little sad this christmas night- i didn't receive a single gift from my family-not even a candy cane
it hurts a lot, even though i know it shouldn't.
my friend at school gave me a lovely candle, for which i am very grateful
my sister gave me my birthday present early-thanks nancy
i know it shouldn't matter, but it does.....

Time....it's a gift!!!

Merry Christmas!

it's always something

it's either a leaky water heater
job's too stressful
jeans that were baggy last week are tight-
gaining weight, what???
a broken oven, then the check engine light won't turn off
oh look! a nail in my tire!!!!!
ain't life grand???

ITS FINALLY FALL

BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY

A symbol of hope

must try this! (trust the universe AND stitch words)

loving this one! i'd like to think i have a few good projects left in me. there's a basket
full of embroidery floss, needles and fabric waiting to be transformed
into something stitchy and beautiful!

feeling more positive today. i know i am not alone. i have many people who love me. i get very sad and lonely sometimes, and it can be very overwhelming. i'm definitely not hopeless! when i go off on a tangent like i did last night, i read it the next day and am grateful i don't feel that way! the feelings come and go. that's normal isn't it?

maybe i need to change the name of my blog to something else,
maybe not, i'm still in pursuit of gratitude, even though i don't feel too much gratitude right now.
i was hoping for a little more attention than i've been getting, is that wrong? i want someone to notice me!
this is obviously not the way to do that! this is just an online diary. i know that.
i find myself feeling sorry for myself at night. i have been having one glass of wine too many, i cry for no apparent reason. no, the reason is apparent, but only to me. i don't really like myself very much. i'm a middle aged, over weight widow. i don't want to live in the past, but it keeps overwhelming me. i went to a therapist for a while. he was very nice, but i need to learn to deal with my shit on my own. there's no one else who will. everyone i know has their own problems. so i'm dumping mine on a blog that no one reads...how pathetic is that?????????

trying to be my own best friend...we're not getting along right now!

It's Friday!!!! I love Friday!!!

my grandson gilbert. art for art's sake!

my precious new grandson jesse

The first step to better times is to imagine them!

The Moody Blues - The Best Way To Travel

thinking thinking thinking thinking thinking..........

amusing

new mexico music!

beautiful dreamers

some people can snooze anywhere!

school is starting. i have mixed emotions about it..i love the teaching ..love the summers....hate the first day of school as much as i hated it when i was a student....just need to get moving... things will be fine...they always are.....okay let's go!

high school chums! how sweet is that?

Percy Faith - The song from Moulin Rouge

why do i always cry when i hear this?

step out into the light!

bring family and friends along, but don't forget the sunscreen!

what am i waiting for?????

it's not the running..it's the getting up early!

i hate getting up early. i think there is some psychological reason for it, especially during the summer, i feel entitled to staying up late AND sleeping late! how can i change my body if i can't change my brain! that's a tough one. waking up is hard to do......

i want this on my classroom desk!

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i ran today!

it wasn't far......but i ran!!! more on saturday! we can do this nancy and marianne! it felt great didn't it?

Solitude...my anti-drug

my tongue is blue...see?

my grandson has it going on! go gilbert!

I Love Rain

HD | Lily Allen | LDN [Official Video] (Explicit)

love it's trippy inappropriateness!

Watch as my garden grows~

STAY POSITIVE! grow flowers!