are those wrinkles????

i don't feel old, but i get a little freaked out sometimes by my reflection in the mirror. how many good years do i have left? that is out of my control. i wish i could say that it wasn't a little scary, but it is! when people say, "i'm getting older"- i say" yes, with any luck"....but i don't want to be old if it means being a burden on my children and grandchildren. i don't like to ask for help..i want to believe i can do it all mostly on my own. lately i'm feeling my control is slipping a bit...i feel that life is controlling me instead.
not ready for that!!!!!