Navajo Prayer

Walking in Beauty

In beauty I walk

With beauty before me I walk

With beauty behind me I walk

With beauty above me I walk

With beauty around me I walk

It has become beauty again

Today I will walk out, today everything negative will leave me

I will be as I was before, I will have a cool breeze over my body.

I will have a light body, I will be happy forever, nothing will hinder me.

I walk with beauty before me. I walk with beauty behind me.

I walk with beauty below me. I walk with beauty above me.

I walk with beauty around me. My words will be beautiful.

In beauty all day long may I walk.

Through the returning seasons, may I walk.

On the trail marked with pollen may I walk.

With dew about my feet, may I walk.

With beauty before me may I walk.

With beauty behind me may I walk.

With beauty below me may I walk.

With beauty above me may I walk.

With beauty all around me may I walk.

In old age wandering on a trail of beauty, lively, may I walk.

In old age wandering on a trail of beauty, living again, may I walk.

My words will be beautiful.

NEW GAS STOVE!

Maybe I'll even cook now!

i just want to celebrate another day of living!

I Just Want to Celebrate by Rare Earth live Midnight Special 1973

i know it shouldn't matter-

but it does...
i love shopping for people at christmas..put a lot of thought into it, because i want to
but i feel a little sad this christmas night- i didn't receive a single gift from my family-not even a candy cane
it hurts a lot, even though i know it shouldn't.
my friend at school gave me a lovely candle, for which i am very grateful
my sister gave me my birthday present early-thanks nancy
i know it shouldn't matter, but it does.....

Time....it's a gift!!!

Merry Christmas!

it's always something

it's either a leaky water heater
job's too stressful
jeans that were baggy last week are tight-
gaining weight, what???
a broken oven, then the check engine light won't turn off
oh look! a nail in my tire!!!!!
ain't life grand???

ITS FINALLY FALL

BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY

A symbol of hope

must try this! (trust the universe AND stitch words)

loving this one! i'd like to think i have a few good projects left in me. there's a basket
full of embroidery floss, needles and fabric waiting to be transformed
into something stitchy and beautiful!

feeling more positive today. i know i am not alone. i have many people who love me. i get very sad and lonely sometimes, and it can be very overwhelming. i'm definitely not hopeless! when i go off on a tangent like i did last night, i read it the next day and am grateful i don't feel that way! the feelings come and go. that's normal isn't it?

maybe i need to change the name of my blog to something else,
maybe not, i'm still in pursuit of gratitude, even though i don't feel too much gratitude right now.
i was hoping for a little more attention than i've been getting, is that wrong? i want someone to notice me!
this is obviously not the way to do that! this is just an online diary. i know that.
i find myself feeling sorry for myself at night. i have been having one glass of wine too many, i cry for no apparent reason. no, the reason is apparent, but only to me. i don't really like myself very much. i'm a middle aged, over weight widow. i don't want to live in the past, but it keeps overwhelming me. i went to a therapist for a while. he was very nice, but i need to learn to deal with my shit on my own. there's no one else who will. everyone i know has their own problems. so i'm dumping mine on a blog that no one reads...how pathetic is that?????????

trying to be my own best friend...we're not getting along right now!

It's Friday!!!! I love Friday!!!

my grandson gilbert. art for art's sake!

my precious new grandson jesse